-Today-17-5-2010-|

今天是我睡得最好睡的一天..
好久好久没这样睡了..
真的很熟很熟..自己醒来也不知已经一点这样晚了~
看看电话收到齐和嘉的信息说一点去看戏..
Walauyehhhh..
我起来已经是十二点五十分了..
Still left 10minutes @.@
我要怎样准备哦...
一起来又不能马上冲凉，只好刷了牙..
打开facebook玩玩下...
一点半，齐来找我了...
可是那时我才要去洗澡..==|.
只好叫齐等我下，等到两点才去载嘉然后再去吃...
他们才上车我就被酸了-.-...
Zzz..酸一定是在等我的，哈~
Paisehhh ya..
让你们要三点才上去..

Wow..
到了cinema，嘉遇到他的初恋情人耶..
因为嘉的初恋情人的男友是我的前队友..
所以就走向来向我打个招呼..
哈~那女的看到嘉好尴尬好尴尬哦...
一直躲在她男朋友的后面..
让嘉想和她打个招呼都不行了...
至于豪就超现实的..
~！@#￥%……&*（）——+
他和嘉bla bla bla了一些，好现实的他=.=|.
After that..
我们七个人..
我，嘉，豪，齐，坤，福和伟...
看《绑匪》这部戏耶~
Enjoy with ALL FRIENDS!!
这部是一部很不错的戏..
可是就有点'假'和有点过分暴力了...
通过这部戏，可以真正体会到一个父亲对一个孩子的父爱♥-|
是一部很感人很伟大的父爱-|
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥


-6.30pm-
本想回来后和他们去打球的...
因为每次他们约我都没去..
今天有点想去耶..（不想扫他们的兴，也不想让他们说我吊给诶）
哈~
可是天不作美..
回来时已经在下着雨了....
没办法~
不能去了...
只好在家上网好了...

过后..
看到他来我家找我弟耶..
不知怎么...
看到他却没什么话说耶..
和他都不再那样好了..
就说两句话也不到...
可能大家的兴趣，性格不同吧？？
不知不知？？
或是我被身边的朋友们影响到了呢？？
毕竟我都知道他经常都被某些朋友一直酸，拿他来当笑柄..
有时真的很替他可怜..
所以就想帮他...
我试过帮他了，可是就连我自己也被扯下了..
所以...我还是选择silent吧~
希望朋友们对他的态度都会改吧~
......
我们曾经都是很好的朋友..
知道你要去读书了..
所以......
祝你一切顺顺利利，读好书啦,你是个很容易mang zhang的人，wish你在读书的期间都会改掉这不大好的情绪-|
+u+u-|


-9.00pm-
今天福载我去比赛..
当中伟，嘉和齐都有一起去...
今天遇到的对手也不算很强..
这是个公开赛，毕竟我是个候补球员..
要等主力赢多分才可以下场..
Last quarter..
终于可以下场了...
我和那的球框真的没有缘..
上了很多次篮都不进..
打得好只有几位人懂，打得不好.....
就让'他们'有机会又在讽刺我了..
嗨......
这场面真的已经习惯了~
只会说人不会说自己..
我恨不得约他们一个一个上场PK!!
我完完全全在很大的压力下打球，这让我怎么打呢？？
我不奢侈他们给我支持，但我并不容许他们侮辱我！！！
也是我打球一直以来最恨的一场比赛...
明晚是8强了，可是直觉告诉我我会缺席这场比赛吧！！！
打完比赛后，我马上回车..
因为我不想见到他们！！！
回到车上...
我忍不住了.........
Aaa...............
当时应该没人懂...
SKIP......!!!!!!


回到家...
收到她（A）的信息~
可是心情不好..
直接告诉她我不想写信息了...
她信息安慰了我，可是为何....我的心情还是??
所以我还是选择没回她了...
一直到出去吃回到家了打开FB才看到....
是这几天觉得她应该是贪好玩，所以才......
可是...
刚才FB看到了..
就觉得很像不一样怪怪了-|
很像很像觉得她..........
可能是我想多了吧......
可是我不想给她个点点希望让她........
可是我就不知怎么告诉她..
我不想伤害到她..
因为前几天就有位.......
嗨...都面临着一样的情形..
就因为她（B）真的是对我太好了，我怕我自己会伤害到她...所以特地决心和她说了一番话..
让她到现在都觉得很伤心...对不起-|
所以导致我现在不敢再开口了..不知如何啊.........
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊...
怎样怎样怎样....
不懂不懂不懂..
都要早上了...
还是去睡觉吧！！

The End???

HAIYA..
Dunno how to describe my feeling just now ya..
VERY VERY......
The feeling I most hate most hate ALL was came out again ><|.
I felt alone at the moment when you all are chatting..
And I felt myself was 'love' back 'Ji Mo Hao Le' that song..
Felt alone like when at camp..
I just can 'hi'and'smile'-....
Felt like you all are very enjoy that moment..
Although I'm not join inside but I was happy to all of you..
....I saw her..but wat I want to do And wat can I do??
YA..I know wat I want to do，but can I do??
CAN'T..really Can't..

Correct..
After break up thn become back friend..
But friend izit only a Word??
Why we met we can't be like last times??
Cant chat cant talk with you like last times??
I dont want we like small kid,after break up then will treat each other like stranger..
I just wanna chat with you(not about our relationship),wanna ask you how are you recently..because I dont want after we break thn like stranger,we like really not recognize each other..like got something inside heart..
I Dont Want!!So I tried want to talk by near to you..
But the situation can't,and I was sad cause I dunno you stil care me as your friend or not..My feeling was told me you seem don't want to meet me and escape me..(Is possible I think too much already) I wan simply talk with you also difficult..
Maybe all of this is a difficulties for us???


You going study soon..
I think I will less message to you dy and you also wont care right,cause I wonder I should not bother you more..
BUT..
I wanna tell you..
I'm really take you as my very very best and close friend in my life..
So..
At here..
I would like to tell you..
After start study there must take care yourself..
Cox人生地不熟，一个女子小心为上策~
Effort in your study^^|.
+u+u^
If got any problem any 'ximshi'..
My phone are ready to receive your message(If you dont mind la)ha~
I'm say the true ya..
If got any problem or ximshi welcome you come to find me oo..
Cox I'm really really take you as my very very close n best friend =)!!
Lastly..wish our memory will be in your heart ever..
Then I really satisfy dy!!
Lets gambateh ba+u+u-|
My Beloved Dear Friend♥

12-5-2010

今天是我这一年来最痛心最痛心的一天..
我很不想很不想从这恶梦醒来..
今早我真的很不想起来，我很想一直睡一直睡...
真的很想睡下去...
可是JH今早来把我吵醒了，想约我去吃早餐...
我拒绝拒绝拒绝了他..可是他还是一定要我陪他去吃..
没办法..
我得立刻陪他去吃..
一醒来，脑海中就出现那件事，很痛心很痛心..
早上已经很久很久没下起大雨了..
为什么老天爷就在我开出门时下起一场大雨呢???
为什么好下不下，偏偏在今天下呢??
这场大雨犹如我的心情..
我想哭，可是我不能向以前这样哭了，只能在枕头底下流泪..
出去吃了，JH问了我，我和他说了..
我吃不下，我真的吃不下..
虽然他懂他不能帮到我，可是他也已尽他能力的安慰我了..

昨天见多天没打给你说电话了，在比赛前去进钱下..
想在比赛回来晚上打给你,想听下你的声音，想要促进我们的感情..
昨晚我揭开那问题，也只是想我们可以一起就解决这问题..
可是....
弄巧反拙了~
不想，真的不想你开口和我说...
可是我应该得尊重你的决定的-|
在睡之前，真的回忆起很多很多~
想起在马六甲的日子，想起在Cavita家的日子..
想起在A-farmosa的日子..
想起被你紧紧拥抱的感觉..
你和我说过的一言一语，你都忘记了吗??
其实我还是相信远距离恋爱是可以的..
爱情是靠双方的心联系的..只要心里有她真的足够了..
我知道你并不相信承诺，可是请你相信我..
我对你的愛，从我开始爱你的那一刻，一直到现在，都没停过！！
我真的很心痛很心痛!!
很想哭，真的很想..
最痛是泪水眼泪留在心里却流不出..
想要爱却不懂得怎么去爱..
只有真心付出的人才懂得何谓哭，为何哭..
在坚强的心，我脆弱了..
心会痛！心也会感动！！
就在这几个星期出事了T-T
很想告诉你，很想和你解释..
这几个星期我真的不是在敷衍你..
我真的很担心我在申请的rayuan不能成功，担心读不到书..
在这几个星期里，我真的真的一直在想如果...
如果我读不到书的话，我会有什么出路呢??
会有什么career适合我呢??
因为我想为我们的未来开始做准备了，一切都应该开始想着了..
我一直都在为自己的前途这些事情..我都没告诉你..
我只和SK讨论过...
是因为我真的不想烦到你，不想让你知道我有烦恼..
况且你也有很多事情还没办妥..
我不想让你烦上加烦了..
所以我才选择不告诉你..
这份冲力是你给我的..
是你让我有这股力量..
虽然现在.............
可是我还会保存这力量，继续向未来发展..
我不后悔..我真的不后悔这份我和你的这份感情...
是你..带给我快乐！
是你..给了我我们的回忆！
是你..让我学会去对我们的感情学会认真！
是你..让我学会如何珍惜彼此之间的感情！
是你..让我学会如何真正的去爱一个人！

明天就是那一天了,我不知你还记不记得..
想告诉你，我对你的愛都没停过..
不论是一年..两年..三年..四年..一直到很久很久..
这份爱一直都会在我心中..
我会等待你的考虑..
希望你真的可以考虑清楚!

想告诉你..
I want/love NOBODY NOBODY but YOU<3!!!

Yesterday Night-|

SK go work today lur........
Bit 'bu she de'yea,coz this times night go out will less him noh t_t
Yesterday midnight chat a lot with him through phone yea..
He told me his heart was really pain bcox of somebody..
He told me he was very tired already,dunno what can do for her..
BUT...
I told him,if you feel tired n pain,then me leh??
Even you and her are not together now,but at least you still can see her,give her a bit action as caring..
BUT...
A couple who lived in different state..cant see each other..cant give her caring beside her..
The feeling of pain will not less than you gua??
Ya..
Although the feeling is pain,but as we can persist in our loveship..the BIT of pain is only a small difficulties for us..
That is WORTH!!
Because of love a people,he/she will wont care any sacrifice for his/her lover!
Chat a lot with him yea..
Wish our chat got use for him and he will know already wat to do at next step..
SK,gambateh together =)!
+u+u^^|.

Before we chat,I went brushed..
不知怎么，在刷牙期间..
脑海中突然想起那一天的情景~
嘴边的嘴角也无端端偷笑起来..
-29-1-2010-
星期五，下午两点半..
我和她从tanah merah准备搭巴士到kota bahru..
因为这天是我们服务的最后一天了，准备回马六甲，所以必须到kota bahru上巴士..
可是在去着kota bahru途中，我和她都心惊胆战，因为那位巴士司机的情绪很不稳定..
加上巴士上只有五六个人-.-|
当时的天气很热很热~
那时巴士司机一直在擦汗，感觉上他应该是生病了，都很像不顾我们的安全~
在路途中，巴士乱歪来歪去~那时的情景真的很紧张，又怕会发生什么意外@.@~
一直到一小时后我们才安全的抵达kota bahru..
昨晚突然想起都有点害怕..
可是想起当时.......
却觉得很开心，很幸福，因为有你在我身边!
在那多么紧张，有生命危险的时刻，有你在我身边，可以紧紧握着你的手(geram geram)，真的什么都不怕了，只感觉到幸福快乐<3-|
虽然我的手不在你那里，可是希望你能感觉到..^幸福快乐♥♥-|

-SORRY-

TWL
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
我想你也知道我为何向你道歉吧~
对不起..
今天下午我看到了你的部落我真的很心痛很心痛~
因为最近你都有提到他，一半我也以为你很想像回以前这样~
和他一起出去玩~去沙滩~去shopping~去喝茶~
所以........
我承认..这次我真的吃醋了~
因为见到你最近部落一直说想回像以前一样..
我以为你想像回以前他和你们出去的生活..
一半也因为你说最近uncle一直像你提起他..
另外是因为你在部落写‘你觉得你在他妈心中应该是未来媳妇了’
所以我才会这样激动哦..
还有样我吃醋的是因为见到你说一直都很怀恋以前和DS们一起的日子..
以前DS的日子有包括他吗???
因为我每一天都在想着和你一起的回忆..
而我心里却想..~
那我和你的回忆呢??
你还记得吗???
我吃醋，我担心，我害怕..
因为担心你和DS们的回忆会盖过我们的回忆~
SORRY-|

已经一点咯..
请原谅我今天超过一点都还没入睡丫..
哈哈~
回到家...
我是打算打开电脑看下你的部落写什么耶，然后玩下dota~
可是看了你的部落后...
才知...........................................................
本想我是打算要写信息和你说要你明天早上千万千万不要打开部落看我写什么耶~
因为我怕你看了后会影响你和朋友去shopping的心情哦..
可是我还是想，如果我叫你不看，你也是会去看的耶~
哈~所以我才马上打了这篇‘道歉’启事给你耶~
打到黑眼圈都跑出来了咯~哈~
嘿~希望我这篇道歉启事不会影响到你明天和朋友去hang gai gai的心情丫..因为真的不想你不开心噢=)
至于我这篇道歉启事能不能让你接受？能不能让你原谅我？
这就明晚你告诉我噢噢？？Okkkkkkkk？？
嘿嘿..真的希望我这熬夜写给你的道歉启事可以增加明天你和朋友去shopping的心情哦~
哈~（那我的黑眼圈也是值得的）-|
嘿嘿~ENJOYYYYYYYYYYY LURRRRRRRRRRRR..
LOVE YOU BABE<3♥♥

NOON-|

Normal life like normal day..
Brush-eat-movie-online..
Morning..
I went school passed rayuan form to teacher..
Thn back home watched a drama..
But on that time I felt very sleepy thn back room n had a nap for 1 hour..

-3pm-
I logged in my facebook..
I saw SK's status..felt very down,cause he going to leave us..
He is a very very best friend/bro for me among all of my friends..
He act as a very important in my life,sometimes we chat our XIN SHI in my home,on phone..
We exhange our XIN SHI n console each other..
Nx monday he going outstation dy,thn whos can I pour out??
The TWO MAIN character in my heart is bo beside me..
One go work and One go perak study..
Anyway,I felt happy to him,finally he effort on his work dy..SK+U+U^^|.
We all had a dream,is wan to earn money..earn money..earn money..to become a RICH MEN!..
But all of us's dream is using on different usage..
All of them is hope to drive LENG car..
But...for ME..
LENG CAR for me is only a decoration..
I want to earn more money because I think for my further future..
I would like to give a comprehensive and two FREEDOOM life to HER!
-Finance Freedoom-
-Time Freedom-

-3.45pm-
I logged in my Blogger..
I read it many times on your blog..
Yesterday,you told me you will hap co cause about her..
I also Same..
I saw n heard HIM again..
My heart really pain..REALLY!
You said I like to simply think..
YAYA~That is TRUE..Sometimes I WU KE FO REN that is right..
You said you wish the day FULL DS will hang out together..
I dunno HE is counted one of your DS or not..
When I saw you wrote you Miss all of the memories n you wish to be like last times again..
At the moment..
I felt hesitate and sad..(I was no any memories in your mind?)
Cause he is one character in your memories..
AND lastly..
You were think you are in place of his mother heart(DAUGHTER-IN-LAW)
That is a confirmation between you n him??
I DUNNO..I really DUNNO..cause your heart only know the answer t_t
HE gave you a lot of happiness..But me??..is only make you drop tears..
This moment I felt my memories with you and your memories with him is can't compare..
It got a big different..
Suddenly,I felt myself is surplus..
Actually this few days still thinking want to give you any surprise before you go to study..
BUT...NOW..
I Think...........................T_T-|



TEARSSS..
Drop..
IN ..
My..
Heart..

Frustrated+Changing-|

I tried to enjoy when at genting..
Cause so bother around this few days..
Really happy..really enjoy with all of my BROTHERSSSS..
So wasted..cause din't go with you..y
Cause I still remembered you told me if go genting with me sure very syok..very niceeeeeeeeee..but I duno you still rmb mou~..
Dunno when this day coming..waitingggg....
Aaa..
So frustrated..
Studies.....make me so trouble,so bother!!
So Disappointed..
Form6 is not approve t_t
Need to replan again..
UTAR approve dy..
BUT..
WHY? WHY? WHY?
Why got the heart to study but the situation were not let..
So regret..
Regret I did not study hard at last year..
Just only put all efforet on basketball..
.........................................
So bad relationship v parents t_t.
Why you all can;t understand what I want??
Dunno the important of.........
Just tell me ask me to do what your think..
I so pekcek to heard it..cause.....
What you all tell me is just temporary only..
But What I want to do is permanent fot my future..
GOD..
You are really give me a big difficulties to me....
I was thinking between this two days..wish can solve this as soon as good as possible..
Begin today,I will change to more mature and must open my eyewide to explore more knowledge..
Changing myself begin today!!
Just can say..
No body can understand can know my feeling my trouble..
SADD!!